Why again?

I am trying my very best, of course with God's grace to let go of this feeling but why am I feeling it again? I can't be dragged by emotions to another heartache... i don't know if i am really strong enough to face another one.

I just want everything to be in order, no complications. But being human is complicated as is and that's where the problem comes in. It is a complete package of you and everything inside and outside of you.

Help me Lord, please help me in letting go of this feeling... this can't be!