He's Married

Yes. I just found out that my ex-boyfriend just got married a couple of weeks ago. Crap! I didn't know that I will feel something weird.

Don't get me wrong... I am not in love with him anymore and I can honestly say that. However, this keeps me asking when my man will come.

I know that God is preparing the best husband for me... someone who can sing or play an instrument with me, someone who is intelligent and can carry a conversation, not to mention that this guy should be financially, emotionally and spiritually ready. But I think i'm getting impatient already. I'm not getting any younger and I would like to be with someone who will spend my years with.

Lord, let this man come to my life.

It's Been a While

It's really been a whils since I posted something here... Been so busy with lots of things these past weeks. I broke my promise to post our team building pictures here... but there were lots! and i don't think the site can handle it! lolz!

Anyway, as mentioned, I've been busy and most of the time was consumed (and is still being consumed) by my work... and i just can't help it!

One thing that I don't like though is what my emotions currently speak... I've been through heartaches and I just don't want to add one. You might be confused... you might be asking if I am currently inlove or in a relationship. Apparently, my answer is nope, just confused.

Sharing everything to even one person will definitely make noise... that's why I prefer keeping this between me and God. He's the best secret-keeper! :)

Still - Hillsong

The Lord is telling us that He should give direction to our lives, not us... so be still...

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

Within Your mighty hands

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You, above the storm

Father, You are king over the flood

I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul, in Christ alone

Know His power, in quietness and trust

Emotions from the Past

In my previous post, I already mentioned that I've fully forgiven those who treated me wrong... including the man behind my past relationship. Thanks to Claire (hehe), what happened in the past 11 years went back (it's okay Claire, i'm so much okay to discuss it now)...

Eleven years... eleven years of fun, tears, anger and love... I know that most of the years that we were together, we loved each other. But it's not God's will that we be together, despite of the years.

How we parted ways (well, officially) and events after that were very traumatic. Looking back, I still feel the pain... i sometimes feel the anger... I still weep sometimes. But at the same time, I appreciated what I've learned after everything. In my Facebook notes, I mentioned that one of the things that I appreciated was my friends... friends who never left me in those trying times... for the words of encouragement and prayers, thank you... those really helped me a lot! Also my colleagues (friends) and my local team... I was actually surprised on the support they've given.

A bright light is now shining on me after the pain... and all because I have a God who's always there...


Btw, i'm currently listening to "Light of A Million Mornings" rendered by the Philippine Madrigal Singers... it's in my imeem playlist... http://www.imeem.com/people/ovsYFLE/playlist/LsTqod-K/the-one-and-only-madz-music-playlist/


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