The Sunday Currently, Tres

Skipped some weeks (yeah, I forgot) and since today's New Year's Eve, aside from this post, I will also have a 2017 Reflection. Anyway, here's what I have today!


Reading
None, as usual. But because of Ang Larawan, I'm looking into reading A Portrait of the Artist as Filipino by Nick Joaquin. It's a three-act play.. now where to find a physical copy, I don't know


Writing
My 2017 reflections. I've been doing this as a personal tradition since 2011 if I am not mistaken.


Listening
Footsteps from outside and faint street noises. I wanted to just rest for a while before I go to church, get the lasagna I ordered from House of Lasagna (love, love, love their Beef Lasagna!) and go home to spend the new year with my siblings, nephew and niece


Thinking
A lot of things. Reflecting on what happened in 2017 is not as easy as the previous years. Been thinking of it for a while but still have nothing to write


Smelling
Just my room. And I realize that if I want this area to be my sanctuary, I need to bring back my oil burner (copied from my previous post, lol)


Hoping
That I won't get sleepy later at church lol! Seriously, I only slept for four hours and have a long day ahead. Maybe I can catch some zzz's when I get home


Wearing
Shirt and shorts


Loving
What happened two days ago, our annual get together. I've always been looking forward to that every Christmas season and this year was great!

Wanting
To sleep, have my eyebrows done (because kilay is life lol) and a good massage. Maybe tomorrow :)


Needing
Okay, I just don't want a massage, I need it! lol!


Feeling
Hopeful. Seeing my condo unit slowly looking like a home, I am hopeful and expectant that 2018 will bring more blessings and turn my unit into my home. Excited to bring in visitors!


Have a great new year, everyone! Enjoy tonight's celebrations.


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The Sunday Currently, Dos

I am almost 24 hours awake, mainly because I am still at a high with my recent 10k run c/o Affinitea. I think I have to create a separate blog for that. Here's my result according to Strava:

But hey, while it's already Monday (time check: 1:16am PH time), it is still Sunday in most parts of the world. So here's my 2nd round of The Sunday Currently.

Reading
My run results in Strava. Yes, I still can't believe that I finished the race. I almost gave up on the 7k stretch because my legs are getting stiff and left pelvic area hurts... followed by the right area, don't know why.

Writing
This text message that I will be sending to my broker. She didn't show up in multiple times that she promised to give what she needs to provide. One more and I will file a formal complaint (wait, I already filed one without response) if she will not comply.

Listening
Just my aircon noise, about to sleep.

Thinking
On when I should be running my next 10k. I will actually look for schedules for January or early February for another 10k run before going a step higher - 21k... yes, half marathon!

Smelling
Just my room. And I realize that if I want this area to be my sanctuary, I need to bring back my oil burner.

Hoping
That I will be able to buy what I need to buy. My Christmas gift list is less than 50% done ugh!

Wearing
A t-shirt and old jogging pants

Loving
The fact there are people who are happy that I started running. Well, in reality, I started 4 months ago but only known to a select few

Wanting
To eat! But I can't because I need to sleep!!!

Needing
A good massage! My body is craving for one

Feeling
Relieved. My dog, a male shih tzu was sick last Friday. I thought it's something really bad but glad that it's cold. One fact though is that when dogs get cold, they lose their appetite and vomit.


Alright! That's it! Have a great week ahead, everyone! :)

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When You Feel Nothing

An impromptu blog. And I don't know how this will turn out.

Aside from what I felt a few hours ago about my dog potentially being sick and away from him, it seems that I feel nothing majority of the time.

Living alone, working alone (most of the time), being inside my own bubble. Being an introvert makes these very easy tasks. These make me also think alone, talk to myself and sometimes do this - document.

This question comes to mind - what are people dealing with in their everyday lives.

But then, you see the news, you see lesser fortunate individuals, families deal with their lowly lives day after day. Sickness, poverty, slavery and a whole lot more.

Then you think again, would you still want to feel something? Immediate and appropriate answer is... of course!

Now I realize that I feel a lot every single moment.

Sad - That's the reason why I started typing here

Lonely - You know what, while I prefer being alone most of the time, it would always be nice to know that someone will just be there and say that things will just be fine. I don't have that constant companion for more than 9 years already... and counting.

Confused - On where life will lead me. I know God is bringing me closer to that, but as of now I'm still in a blur.

Bored - I am used to be busy when at work, but guess what, I am doing this. While I have a document to finish, I am taking time so I can do something tomorrow. I don't want to get used to not being busy.

But despite all those negative feelings...

Thankful and super blessed.

God has blessed me so much even when I don't deserve it. I say this over and over again because it's true. Looking at other people not as 'fortunate' as you are, you would ask why. And then I answer (talking to myself again, huh?). It's all about mindset, it's all about faith and knowing that God suffered way worse that any other living (or dead) person there is or was. And why He did that, because of LOVE. I may feel lonely, sad, betrayed at times. In this state and condition. But I won't be surprised if someone who is not that fortunate is happier in life than I am.

Sometimes, we feel that nothing is happening. This is because we keep on looking outside going in. Most of the time we look at the surface. What we need to do more often is to look inside going out. How we feel deep inside after everything that is happening and has happened will make us realize that life is way better than we always think.

Surprising that this blog turned out like this. Amazing. Thank you, Lord.

However, I will not feel this every moment. After posting this, I may feel nothing... or different again. But one thing is sure, I can always look up... and inside.

Wow. I should do this more often.

The Sunday Currently, Uno

Okay, I know it's a Tuesday (my Monday shift) early morning. But forgive me on this one. I was so tired from my Sunday activities that I slept and woke up at 8am the next day! Whew! So here it is, my first Sunday Currently.

Reading
Work emails. Yep.

Writing
I have this crazy idea of creating messages that should be read by people when I die. It's in my draft section and for regular update. So people, if I indeed die and you see this post, you know what to do.

Listening
Office noise... a very faint one and few vehicles at EDSA

Thinking
What time I should sleep and wake up to run

Smelling
Nothing specific, maybe myself? LOL

Hoping
That I will be able to run 45 minutes later

Wearing
Blouse and slacks, my work clothes

Loving
Him! Sino ba kamo? Basta sya!

Wanting
A piece of cake #ihatesweets LOL

Needing
Still some hugs. Someone to tell that everything will be alright

Feeling
Excited and anxious for my FIRST 10k race on Sunday. I was able to run that distance last Saturday and still can't believe at the results (see below)

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The Sunday Currently Trial

I would like to revive my blog to document some of those I've said while talking to myself (I am so sure you talk to yourself, too! Lol!)

Then got this idea from celebrity Maine Mendoza on publishing weekly blogs called The Sunday Currently. This was created by siddathornton to publish what is 'currently' happening to ones life. What a good idea! We as adults tend to either focus at the past and/or the future while ignoring what is happening NOW!

The post is supposed to be simple, not sure though if it really is for me lol! But I should answer the following:

• Reading (Okay, I don't read books so this may be hard)
• Writing
• Listening
• Thinking
• Smelling (hmmm.. myself? Lol!)
• Wishing
• Hoping
• Wearing
• Loving
• Wanting
• Needing
• Feeling

So let's see, it's not yet Sunday but let me consider this as a practice.

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Reading

My project plan at work. Well, yes, I am currently at work lol!

Writing

This blog!

Listening

Okay, this may be weird to some, but I am listening to a recorded AM radio program

Thinking

How to plot the process document for my project (again, I am at work)

Smelling

3-in-1 coffee that I just drank

Hoping

That I can keep myself awake tonight and finish my target run later

Wearing

Blouse and slacks, my work clothes

Loving

The fact that I will be able to fill my condo unit with house stuff!

Wanting

To run! Finish 10k on Saturday!

Needing

Some hugs. Someone to tell that everything will be alright

Feeling

I honestly don't know. Nothing? 

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There! Let's see if I can sustain this. Good night!

A Comeback Blog: When I Die

What a comeback, right? LOL! Well, it's been YEARSSSS since I've posted something here. A lot has happened which I choose not to elaborate (It's almost weekend and I'm bit tired).

So.. I made this a few weeks back and would like to post it somewhere that my sisters may read in case they want to have a reference.

(Update as of November 26, 2017)

This will be updated from time to time until either make up my mind or die, whichever comes first.

I still have my St. Peter plan, it’s mine. Contact Jong Menchavez (a friend and former colleague in Davao) as he knows who So if I die before my dad, use it. The free 4 days should be enough to process everything.

I prefer cremation but if it’s more expensive than burial, then the latter will do.

I don’t care about what you’ll do to me because I won’t know if anyway. So it can be as crappy as it can.

You don’t need to post how I was on social media because, again, I won’t know it anyway. Others won’t care either. Well, maybe my family.

If you wish to visit at my wake, do not expect people to serve you. We are a small family, independent at that. Most if not all of my friends are educated and professionals, just help yourselves. Also, don’t expect that my wake will have lots of food or have food at all. You have jobs, feed yourselves. We are still relatively poor and won’t afford additional expenses.

Lastly, on my tombstone, I want this written - I’ve lived my life based on my decisions and I take full responsibility. You should too!

(Update as of December 13, 2017)

I am just reminded of my wish right after declaring dead, to have all healthy parts donated to the most needed children, mothers or breadwinners. It'll be my family's option if they want to know the identity of the recipients, but what I would like to request to the latter -- pay it forward.